Introduction?

**Warning: may include somewhat strong language.**

Starting out with the first post on a blog has me questioning, “Where do I even begin?” I have decided on basically a vague introduction into who I am because how else is anyone going to figure out where all of these anxieties and mentally fucked up problems come from?

I am a 22 year old female. I have been through it all from mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive relationships. I am bisexual. I have done many drugs and beat addictions to the strongest of them. Basically I have experienced more in my life at 22 than many people I know who are 40+ years old.

My anxiety has always been here, but it has never been as bad as it is now. I am attempting to figure out why, and writing is one of the biggest escapes I have towards this. Standing where I am today compared to where I have been has me at a stand-still when it comes to understanding exactly why my anxiety is this bad. I honestly don’t think that my life could get any better, but my mental state on the other hand is in an absolute different world.

I love giving advice, I love hearing what is going on in others lives. At the same time, I feel that by expressing what I have been through could potentially help someone else. I never had anyone to take my hand and let me know that eventually it was going to be okay; so here I am with my hands reached out offering to help, regardless of your situation..


2 thoughts on “Introduction?

  1. Maybe you’re anxious because you are in a better place than you’ve ever been and it feels strange? You’ve never been happy, never experienced freedom from abuse of one kind or another, whether it was someone abusing you or you abusing yourself with drugs etc.

    Now you’re free of all that and it’s a strange new world, and new you, and that is going to make you anxious, because it’s new, different.

    Life teaches us all lessons if we’re smart enough to learn. Some of us learn early, some later, and some never learn at all. You’ve learned, and grown stronger from the journey, but now you find yourself somewhere you’ve never been, and it’s a bit scary.

    But you’ve got this. I believe in you.

    You offered your hand, well I’m offering mine. It will be okay eventually. I’m not saying all your battles are over, but you’ve found the strength within that will carry your through those still to come.

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  2. I love the way you worded this. I believe that everyone has just been on a different path in life and I feel that if they are able to relate to me in some way then maybe I can make a positive difference in the world. Facing my anxiety has been the biggest challenge I have had to face and if I am able to get through this and help others I will be ecstatic.

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